You complete the journal once, in one sitting or across several. It covers five territories: body, mind, relationships, work, meaning.
Answers stay on this device as you go. You can leave and come back. Nothing is sent until you send it.
Three optional details. None of them needs to be exact and any of them can be left blank. They give the reading context your answers cannot: some of what you write reads differently at different ages, and a life lived in more than one place is its own fact.
Nothing here is medical advice. No person reads your journal.
When you press send, the journal goes to a server, the reading is written, and it appears at a link only you have.
Seven days after the reading arrives, both are deleted. You can withdraw sooner.
What the week is actually running on, before anyone talks about character.
Six pages
BodyOne of six
Health
Known against felt. Labs can be normal while something has been running for years.
Your body, as it is
And the follow-through
You can skip this, and it is recorded as a choice rather than a gap. Most of the reading comes from the written answers.
What is the health concern or symptom you have carried the longest? What have doctors said about it, and what do you suspect they might be missing?
Left unanswered.
BodyTwo of six
Energy
Yesterday, hour by hour. Not your theory of your energy.
Supply, and pacing
Walk through yesterday hour by hour in terms of your energy. When was it high, when did it drop, and how did you manage it?
Left unanswered.
BodyThree of six
Restoration
Hours in bed are not the same as restored. And whether rest needs a receipt.
Waking up
Resting while awake
What usually happens between the time you lie down and when you fall asleep? If you wake up in the middle of the night, what does your mind focus on?
Left unanswered.
BodyFour of six
Physical capacity
What your body can do, and whether you live in it or drive it.
What your body can do
Your connection to it
BodyFive of six
Being seen
Being looked at. Who they think you are is a different question, later on.
When was the last time you felt truly good about being seen, in a photo, at an event, or just on an ordinary morning? What was different about that day?
Left unanswered.
BodySix of six
Whose body
Health asked what is wrong with it. This asks whose it is.
Body, written.
It is kept here. Come back whenever you like, tonight or next week. Nothing is sent until you choose to send it.
One of five set
II
Mind
How is your mind?
Weather and load. Not personality.
Five pages
MindOne of five
Mental clarity
Whether the fog tracks with sleep, load or stress, and what you do with everything you are holding.
Cognitive clarity
What you do with the load
When did persistent brain fog or trouble focusing start? Is it constant, or does it track with sleep, stress, or specific habits?
Left unanswered.
MindTwo of five
Emotional weather
Whether good things still reach you, which is not the same as coping.
Your baseline
What you do with feeling
MindThree of five
Anxiety
Where it lands in your body, and what you use to bring it down.
Baseline tension
Where in your body do you physically hold stress, such as your jaw, shoulders, or stomach? When your system is activated, what do you rely on to bring it back down, a walk, a screen, a drink, a person, or does it not fully come down? And what thoughts come up most often when you feel anxious?
Left unanswered.
MindFour of five
Resilience
Not whether things hit you. What they leave.
When something goes wrong
What it leaves behind
Think of your last real setback. How long did recovery actually take, and what specifically helped you get back on your feet?
Left unanswered.
MindFive of five
Inner monologue
The critic in its own words. A summary is a disguise.
On your worst days, what does your inner critic actually say to you? Use its words rather than a summary, and name the single rule it is enforcing.
Left unanswered.
Mind, written.
It is kept here. Come back whenever you like, tonight or next week. Nothing is sent until you choose to send it.
Two of five set
III
Relationships
How are your people, and your place?
Who knows you, and where you disappear.
Ten pages
RelationshipsOne of ten
Desire
Where it is now. Going quiet is information.
Wanting, and being wanted
The current of it
When did that part of you feel most alive, with a person or on your own? If it has gone quiet, when did the quiet start, and what was happening around then?
Left unanswered.
RelationshipsTwo of ten
The closest bond
The one sentence you have not said.
How it stands
When it goes wrong
What is the one sentence you have not spoken in your closest relationship, the thing you keep putting off saying?
Left unanswered.
RelationshipsThree of ten
Friendship
Who you actually tell.
Your people
How far down it goes
Who was the last person you were completely honest with about how you were doing? How long ago was that?
Left unanswered.
RelationshipsFour of ten
Reciprocity
What you carry because you do not trust it to happen otherwise.
Balance, and who starts things
In your relationships or your work, where do you take on the managing, planning, and admin because you do not trust it will otherwise get done? What does carrying that weight cost your respect for the other person, and what keeps you paying it?
Left unanswered.
RelationshipsFive of ten
Belonging
Friendship asked who you tell. This asks who would notice.
Where or when did you last feel fully woven in, not just around people, but held by them? Where in your life now are you respected rather than genuinely held? And if you stepped back for a month, who would notice first?
Left unanswered.
RelationshipsSix of ten
Place
Whether you would stay if leaving cost nothing.
The city around you
The home itself
If moving cost nothing and required no effort, would you stay in your current home and city? What actually keeps you where you are?
Left unanswered.
RelationshipsSeven of ten
Family
Who you turn into, and how long it takes to stop.
How it is now
Who you become around them
Who do you turn into the second you step back into your family dynamic? And how many days does it take to feel like yourself again after you leave?
Left unanswered.
RelationshipsEight of ten
Children
Where you stand, if anywhere. This is the one page you can skip.
If you have children: what personal interest or part of your identity have you put on hold since becoming a parent that you miss most? If you do not have children: where do you stand right now on the question of having children, whether decided, ambivalent, exploring, or content without? Feel free to skip.
Left unanswered.
RelationshipsNine of ten
Assertion
Reciprocity asked what you carry. This asks what you swallow, and where it sits.
Saying the hard thing
Where the anger goes
When were you last genuinely angry but did not show it? How did you handle that feeling, and where did you hold it in your body?
Left unanswered.
RelationshipsTen of ten
Authenticity
Who they think you are. Being seen was being looked at; this is being known.
With the people closest to you, which version of you are they relating to? Name it in a few words if you can, the way somebody else would describe you. Where does it differ from who you actually are right now, and what would it cost you to let them see the difference?
Left unanswered.
Relationships, written.
It is kept here. Come back whenever you like, tonight or next week. Nothing is sent until you choose to send it.
Three of five set
IV
Work
What do your days go to?
Fit, money, and whose path it is.
Seven pages
WorkOne of seven
Vocational fit
What you actually do all day, underneath the job title.
Stripped of job titles and jargon, what do you actually spend your time doing all day? Which parts would you keep doing even if they paid less or had no prestige?
Left unanswered.
WorkTwo of seven
Mastery
What happens between deciding and doing. One skill, not your whole history of changing.
When you decide to get better at something, what actually happens between the intention and the doing? Where does the time go, and what are you doing instead when you are not doing the thing you meant to do?
Left unanswered.
WorkThree of seven
Expression
The first thing to go when life turns practical.
When life becomes purely about productivity and obligations, what is the first non-practical or creative thing you stop making room for? What actually stops you from reclaiming it, and would you be embarrassed to be seen doing it?
Left unanswered.
WorkFour of seven
Agency
Where the limit is, and what is on the other side of pushing it.
Where in your daily work do you feel most constrained or managed? What would happen if you pushed back on that limit?
Left unanswered.
WorkFive of seven
Financial security
The number that actually sits in your chest. Not that money is stressful.
What is the specific money metric or bill that causes you the most quiet anxiety right now?
Left unanswered.
WorkSix of seven
What money goes to
Financial security was the number that worries you. This is where the money actually goes.
WorkSeven of seven
Whose career
Vocational fit was the work itself. This is who you were doing it for.
Whose validation were you chasing when you chose this path? Be honest: what did you think that approval would protect you from?
Left unanswered.
Work, written.
It is kept here. Come back whenever you like, tonight or next week. Nothing is sent until you choose to send it.
Four of five set
V
Meaning
What is it all for?
What the days are in service of. Not what you would like them to be.
Five pages
MeaningOne of five
Purpose
The honest reading of your actual days.
Without preparing an answer: what is your life in service of right now, the honest reading of your actual days, not the aspirational one?
Left unanswered.
MeaningTwo of five
Value congruence
Three values against last week's hours. Money was the other half of this question; this is the time.
Name your top three values. Now, honestly: how many hours did each get last week?
Left unanswered.
MeaningThree of five
Connection
Whether anything larger than the task list still reaches you.
MeaningFour of five
Contribution
What you want left behind. First answer, uncensored.
What specifically do you want to have built, changed, or left behind by age seventy? Give your first uncensored answer.
Left unanswered.
MeaningFive of five
Whose definition
The inner critic was the voice when you fail. This is the one that set the target, and where you learned it.
Look at what you are currently working hardest for. Whose voice is in your head telling you that you have to achieve it?
Left unanswered.
What version of yourself did you learn was the most acceptable, safe, or valued when you were growing up? Where in your life are you still playing that role today?
Left unanswered.
Meaning, written.
It is kept here. Come back whenever you like, tonight or next week. Nothing is sent until you choose to send it.
Five of five set
VI
The close
Where this life has been set, and what it is still deciding.
Context, then the four decisions. The body comes back after this, without a story attached.
The closeOne of eight
The chapters
Where the life has been set, in order.
Where your life has been set, in order. A place, the years or ages, and one line for what that chapter was.
Left unanswered.
The closeTwo of eight
The markers
What pivoted the years. Nothing here asks what it meant.
Tick anything that marked your years. Nothing here asks what it meant.
The closeThree of eight
The timeline
When you were last well.
Roughly when did you last feel genuinely healthy, energetic, and completely yourself?
Left unanswered.
What happened during the period when that changed?
Left unanswered.
What reliably improves your state, and what reliably makes it worse?
Left unanswered.
The closeFour of eight
Play
Expression asked what you make. This asks what has no output at all.
When did you last do something purely for the pleasure of it, no output, no self-improvement, no one served? What was it? I cannot remember is an answer, and an important one.
Left unanswered.
The closeFive of eight
How you change
Mastery asked about one skill. This asks about every change you have tried.
Think of the last time you tried to change something real. Did it hold, fade, or never start?
Left unanswered.
When you get a clear insight about yourself, does it change what you do, or die in a notebook?
Left unanswered.
What actually helps you follow through, and what reliably stops you?
Left unanswered.
The closeSix of eight
Where you are most yourself
The timeline asked when you were last well. This asks when you were last yourself. They are not always the same date.
When do you feel most like yourself, most alive, most at home in your life? Describe the last time.
Left unanswered.
What person, practice, trait, or place has reliably carried you through hard seasons?
Left unanswered.
What are you quietly good at that you rarely give yourself credit for?
Left unanswered.
The closeSeven of eight
The unsaid
The truest thing about your life might be one nobody asked.
Is there anything true about your life right now that this journal has not asked you?
Left unanswered.
The closeEight of eight
The threshold
These four decide more than the rest of the pages combined.
Do you allow yourself to rest purely because your body needs it, or do you require a finished piece of work or a day of high output before rest feels legitimate?
Left unanswered.
Which decision are you avoiding because once you make it, it cannot be undone?
Left unanswered.
In what area of your life is keeping your options open currently acting as a shield against a commitment that might turn out to be imperfect?
Left unanswered.
What part of your drive would you keep on purpose, even if you could let it go?
Left unanswered.
VII
Physical signals
One last pass, and a different kind.
No reflection required. Tick what is true right now. It is read on its own, and if a pattern is worth checking with a doctor, your reading says so plainly and names what to raise. Nothing here is scored and nothing here is a diagnosis. It is the one part not to skip. The last page works differently, and says so.
Physical signalsOne of five
Energy
Temperature, skin, hair, and nails
Cycle, pelvis, and hormones
Physical signalsTwo of five
Metabolic and blood sugar
Gut, digestion, and food reactivity
Head, nerves, and sensory load
Physical signalsThree of five
Attention
Sleep and recovery
Immune, joints, and recovery
Physical signalsFour of five
Worth prompt attention if present
This last set is different from everything above it. Nothing here is read for a pattern, and none of it goes into your reading. Each one has its own route, which is exactly why they are here: it would not be responsible to ask this many questions about your body and leave these out. Tick one and you get a line about it on this page, now, saying what to do and how quickly. Nothing else happens to it. A page with nothing ticked is not a clean bill of health, only a page with nothing ticked.
Context, which changes the reading
Not symptoms. These change how everything above is read.
Physical signalsFive of five
Timing
Two last questions about the signals, and then you are done. Not the last page, which is answered already.
For the signals you ticked: did some of it begin around the same time, or after a particular event, such as a pregnancy, an illness, a new medication, a loss, or a birthday? Note what started when, as best you can. If something has simply always been there, say so.
Left unanswered.
Does any of what you ticked reliably worsen in the days before your period and ease once it starts?
Left unanswered.
Written.
All five territories, the close, and the signals. Nothing has left this page yet.
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